We forget our place

This degrading of our quality of life comes from a lack of historical literacy. We have forgotten how close to disaster we are at any moment; we live on a series of fragile systems upon which our daily life depends and we don’t seem to care. Ignorance of their existence or function leads us to taking certain privileges for granted, forgetting that many people outside our bubble of experience may not share in those advantages and that we too could find ourselves stripped of them within a moment. We have become dependent on these systems to survive; our graves might fail to contain the number of dead should any of these systems fail.

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February 8th, 2025

Maybe achieving contentment really does require giving up a little bit

Image credit: Widener Collection, National Gallery of Art

In the face of overwhelming economic instability, financial uncertainties, fascism, climate change, anti-intellectualism, governmental antagonism, Christian nationalism, and propaganda pushed by social media and media outlets, I have begun to wonder if my smaller desires for a more pleasant life may be requests so insignificant that they serve to only make my life less pleasant with their continued presence in my mind. Perhaps the better choice is to resign myself to what is likely never to change, find the satisfaction available to me within the choices I currently have, and work on surviving the upcoming chaos?

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“Study of an Old Man,” probably late 17th century

January 27th, 2025

Great Art

Dean Kissick — Harper’s Magazine

The Painted Protest: How politics destroyed contemporary art

Great art should evoke powerful emotions or thoughts that can be brought forth in no other way. If art merely conjured the same experience that could be attained through knowledge of the author’s identity alone, there would be no point in making it, or going to see it, or writing about it. If an artwork’s affective power derives from the artist’s biography rather than the work, then self-expression is redundant; when the self is more important than the expression, true culture becomes impossible.

This article explores the issues with the current art world and the significance of art in a world saturated in content. The writer is not alone in feeling confused about the purpose of some installations, as I’ve also experienced mediocre art given prominence in collections merely on the pretension present in the text accompanying the installation.

I think the problems with art today are symptoms of the democratizing effect greater access to tools has offered for creators. Digital art has allowed an overwhelming amount of creative work to be presented online at little to no cost to the viewer, and AI artwork has then stolen that material to remix it into something new with only a sentence or two of prompting text. Why go to a museum to just see art? Museums seem to have taken the angle of hosting “meaningful” artwork that has a political message or a horrifying story attached to its creation in an effort to increase its value to the viewer. At some point though they seem to have forgotten that the extra messaging was supposed to amplify good art, not replace it.

December 30th, 2024

Do people want change?

The chance that people are generally good and want to help others inspires hope within me. I want to believe that perhaps with a little more education and exposure to sensible thought, the average Trump voter can come to see how the far right doesn’t serve their needs. I want to cling to that, but I remain hesitant.

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A small broken bird’s egg resting in a pool of water.

December 24th, 2024

Now only on Neocities

I used to host this site on GitHub and use Neocities as a bit of a mirror to the site, but I have changed my mind after watching a video about the history of the Web that a coworker sent me. I have decided to fully embrace the independent, old-school, quirky, and “slower” Web by becoming a supporter of Neocities and moved my site exclusively to it. I have removed the GitHub features from the site in an effort to lean into what made the Web interesting to me in the first place (besides, nobody used the GitHub features I had enabled here anyway).

The process will actually make publishing changes to my site even easier; I used to have to use Git to transfer content up to GitHub Pages and wait for a deployment. Now I can use the Neocities CLI to make changes within Panic Nova without having to deal with the frustration of managing branches and merging that is beneficial to large projects and teams but fairly pointless and frustrating for a small site like mine.


A short story of a love long sought and even longer kept.

How I met my wife, Lisa

December 22nd, 2024 Image credit: Tim Middleton

November 6th, 2024

Never mind, back to cynicism

i really thought this country would say no. instead, it shouted yes

— jamelle (@jamellebouie.net) November 6, 2024 at 3:06 AM

I’m deeply disappointed in my fellow Americans and I’m struggling to understand the reasoning for their voting decisions. Is it entirely ignorance? How could it be? Surely they would’ve seen or heard accounts of some of the things Trump has said. Is it the far more unnerving possibility of bigotry and hatred? I fear that the number of voters in that group might be distressingly high.

I thought Americans would do better. I felt a swelling of pride that Americans would stop the advance of fascism in its politics and culture. I had hope for this election and for good people to make wise choices, and that was a mistake.

October 1st, 2024

Donald Trump has made me proud to be an American again

Image credit: Justine Brun

I honestly did not believe it to be possible, after years of disappointment, frustration, and diminishing esteem for the country, to actually be able to consider the possibility of hope and pride for the future of the United States. I think I owe gratitude to Donald Trump for this, though I don’t think he would be pleased, for my reasons for seeing hope are extremely divergent from his own and contrary to his messaging.

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A crop of an American flag, blowing in the wind, with sunlight shining through the fabric

July 17th, 2024

Gun culture in politics

Ryan Broderick — Garbage Day

Now we have Babydog

Writer Jason Pargin made a really good TikTok this week about this bizarre side effect of social media-driven news. Pargin, focusing on the 2020 Nashville bombing, which everyone did basically forget about, argues that because the motives of that attack were never clearly linked to a “team” — the bomber was mainly interested in shape-shifting lizard people — the story didn’t have much of a tail online.

Why does it feel like people are underwhelmed by the assassination attempt on a former U.S. President? I feel that this should be a much bigger issue than what it appears to be for most people, because for someone to be able to get that close to an important political figure is a dangerous weakness for the executive branch of the United States’ government. Have we always been this numb to violence, or is this something new?

June 28th, 2024

My old employer is back in the news again

A distant view of the headquarters building for the company The Voice of the Martyrs

Rebecca Hopkins — The Roys Report

EXCLUSIVE: Whistleblowers Accuse Voice of the Martyrs’ President of Deception and Retaliation

In exclusive interviews with The Roys Report (TRR), 10 former VOM staff accused VOM President Cole Richards of retaliating against employees for failing to give him unquestioning support. They also claimed Richards pushed out his predecessor to gain control of the organization. And they say Richards has a pattern of lying to protect himself and VOM, including deceiving people about his background and credentials.

I wasn’t entirely certain if I wanted to comment on the latest news about a former employer. It’s been years since I worked for VOM, and I have had enough conflicted feelings about my time there that I’ve largely tried to avoid speaking about them any longer. What prompted me to make this post was seeing the response that has come from the existing employee base, who have not decided to unanimously defend and believe the victims of the executive team’s cruel and vindictive behavior. This bothers me greatly, because I was one of those victims.

I worked for VOM for over eight years. I started as a volunteer and eventually became a full-time salaried employee, supporting the content creation and distribution across VOM’s internet presence. My work is still visible on the VOM website or social media accounts, and the memory of my contributions have continued in some of the practices that the company still employs on their web presence, not solely because of my involvement but I believe because I helped make those processes a success.

Simultaneously I feel as if my time there left very little impact, primarily due to how regularly the executive team constrained and attacked those within the company for attempting to make change within their roles. Retributive behavior was common, with punishments for original thought being a loss of opportunity or diminishment of roles. The executive suite was quick to punish but slow to communicate, leaving people uncertain if anything was actually planned before discovering they had overstepped bounds and were to be reprimanded for the error.

Part of what disturbs me about the response is that this corruption is not new nor was it unknown within the company while I was employed. I even experienced my first taste of disdain for the actions of the company within my first year. When I was new to the company I was able to overcome the cognitive dissonance through the strength of my idealism and hope in the goals of the company, but these weakened until I finally broke. By the latter half of my time with the company I had allowed the propaganda and abuse to disrupt my sense of agency, fooling me into believing that I was blessed to have a job anywhere, especially a place as self-important as VOM. It was only when I escaped, thanks to the encouragement of my wife, Lisa, that I was able to look back and see how much of a victim of abuse I was.

I grieve for the people still trapped in Bartlesville, Oklahoma, and in a destructive system like VOM. I worry for those who are supported by such a vindictive company who will pull support for the pettiest of grievances. They are perpetuating a system of abuse that stretches across the globe and they must be stopped.

The employees who are denying the reality of the pain VOM is continuing to cause may very well be active victims themselves, and with that under consideration, I can understand their response. But as someone who denied to himself for so many years the problems at VOM, along with the years of regret and healing that occurred afterward, I encourage everyone involved to reconsider the evidence and perhaps consider trusting colleagues and former employees. The unacceptable behavior being attested to has and continues to occur. The corruption is real. If you’ve managed to avoid being hurt by VOM, then count your blessings, but don’t deny it to be true for others. And get out as soon as you can.

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